And slightly sick at the moment. But that just means I have time to not work on text development. :)
Thanksgiving was hard, since it is a very American holiday, there obviously wasn't anything remotely the same about it here. And I worked that day anyway. But I am trying to be thankful. I knew that moving to a new country would mean that holidays would be heard. And that I would feel alone. A lot. The loneliness has really his the last week week. Not that I al loving being here any less, but that as the holidays approach I am reminded repeatedly as everyone asks what I am doing that I am not going home. But I have a month off, which is crazy. A bit sad as I don't get paid for a month. But I am planning on doing a lot of things for the month anyway.
- Two concerts.
- Disney!
- Time with international friends!
- Hakone for an onsen trip!!
- Osaka for new years with new friends.
So I am keeping busy. Somewhere in there I need to learn more Japanese, and practice my Japanese, and catch up on a TON of reading and TV watching and video games. And mail packages back to the states. I have things I need to mail about 5 people. ^^*.
I also thing i have finally found a place where I can just be me. And wear what I think is cute. And not have to apologize for the things that I like. I am not sure if that is because finally, at my age, I am accepting who I am, and like that person most days, or if it is because I stopped trying to make others happy and am finally doing the things that I know that I need to do. I am not sure. But it is worth thinking about. Things aren't easy, and I still have many bad days, but I am happier, and more OK with who I am, and I know who I want to be, and I am happy, and content, and not miserable, and a great many other things that I wasn't in the states.
Sure, cancer research is an important and valuable thing.
But if it destroys you, is is worth it?
I think not.
But going where the path presents itself, doing something for me, that I wanted, and seeing something in my life finally appear to work for the better, and on the path of least resistance? It is a strange and wonderful feeling.
And I look forward to seeing how else I can grow and mature in Japan.
Another update later, with the apartment and things.
